Wednesday, 15 November 2017

Into the Unknown - figuring out what I need to change

I'm having a lot of trouble with videos lately. I really love making them but to be real with you, I film something and then instantly hate everything about it: how I talk, how I look, and how while reflecting on the video I feel like I'm talking about something completely pointless.

Uploading a new video brings me so much joy and the comments are so meaningful to my mental health but the filming process has somewhat downgraded for me and it might just mean I'm overthinking the way I create now. I think my channel needs to become more artistic and less like the Youtubers that I watch in my downtime. I love fashion and style but I'm not an expert on anything and need to remember why She Catwalks is my blog name. She Catwalks has always been about being able to catwalk my own personal style with confidence and to help people realize that style is subjective and the latest trends don't have to dictate if you're "fashionable" or not. 

The change over to being primarily YouTube based was an amazing thing for my entrance to the blogging world but with Youtube I got tangled up with tying to film the mainstream kind of videos like tags or favourites (nothing wrong with these because they are my favourite to watch). But they don't always work for me to film because they don't feel genuine to my path in the blogging world. It feels like they create all these branches instead of growing the trunk of my creativity. Once again, overthinking is a common enemy in my life, but when I have to refilm one video 5 times and even then I'm not fully happy, do I put it out? How do I just give up on an idea? That isn't the way I like to do things and I definitely don't want to start doing things that way. 

I need to write and I need to blog again. It's meditative to take pictures then write about them and it's something that I've realized only now that I was missing. Filming videos have become my new love and way of release, but when my editing software doesn't work or my 5 year old kit lens isn't up to my standards I get burdened with stress. I need to be good enough for myself before anyone else lately it seems, and I'm not sure if that's a selfishness shining though or just not wanting to be judged. Everything I create I want to be better than the last and I think that's what causes my long pauses in between Youtube uploads. This isn't my job by any means so it's not like this is effecting my income at all but it is my passion so it effects my heart and happiness.

I miss this blog so much and I think shifting back, not fully but so that I can balance both Youtube and the blog, will just be perfect. I miss being creative with photography and this little bedroom photoshoot really helped me realize that. I am so excited for the future and what She Catwalks will bring.

Thanks for reading,

Monday, 24 April 2017

Brown Suede

Hey kittens! I absolutely have been loving styling pretty warm tones of brown for the last month and thought I would share a really simple outfit that incorporates a large brown piece!
For me, I still need a basic outfit with any brown accessory which normally means I style black with brown and that's it. But brown with black and an other colour also works I've found, for example the brown, black and then light wash denim colour of my shorts here! I also love brown, black and white, or brown, black and red. I think with a little bit of confidence to style brown I have been gravitating to warmer colours paired with my usual basic outfits, and I really am digging it.

Thanks for reading,

Monday, 17 April 2017

Book Report: A Darker Shade of Magic Series - V. E. Schwab

I am going to try and write a short review but honestly, I don't think I can even begin to imagine typing everything I need to say about this series.

The Darker Shade of Magic series has given me so much more than any novels I have read. When I closed the back cover of the final novel, tears were already streaming down my face. It feels as though I stepped out of their magical world and travelled far away from my favourite characters ever written.

I guess I have to begin by explaining the plot of this story and actual give you some details about why you should read it (but even if I don't do a great job please just go for it). So, here it goes:

London, England is a real place we know in this world today. We know in the 1700's kings and queens and knights and kingdoms were a thing and that there was no magic then and still none now. This we all think to be true but in this world, King George III keeps a secret; a magician from another version of London comes and visits him. We learn that this magician, Kell, is a messenger from his world, his city. One that he calls Red London where magic thrives in harmony with man. We learn that there is yet another, White London, where magic is starved, and drained by the power-hungry rulers that live there. And that Black London is a place, a void, that no one speaks of.
In A Darker Shade of Magic, Kell travels to Grey London as an ambassador to his Throne but also childishly smuggles seemingly innocent items touched by magic. One piece making him realize that it was a foolish hobby no matter how careful he tried to be.

With a cutpurse and thief from Grey London named Lila Bard who at first meeting successfully pickpockets him, Kell returns to his home city to begin a journey that would save his world. We get to know that Lila is a girl who is scared of one thing; human ties that hold her in one place. She tells herself that she hates people so that she doesn't need to worry later if they die or leave her. And because of this her back story is entirely compelling and heart-wrenching.

I am 100% in love with every character Victoria introduces, including the antagonist Holland, who you are introduced to. These three characters I mentioned, happen to all be in my fan art for the series. For people that have read the series, the spells and the characters go hand in hand, and the characters all connect at one point in a really amazing way, especially seeing as they are all my favourites. I can tell you that each of them are from a different London; Kell from Red, Holland from White, Lila from Grey.
That's it because I don't want to spoil anything, but I promise you, if you like fantasy books with amazing adventures, pirate ships, and magic, you will certainly fall in love with this series.

Thanks so much for reading,

Monday, 10 April 2017

Dewy Sping Makeup Look

I wanted to post some pictures of my latest makeup look for days I want to actually wear a full face of makeup. I am one of those girls that rarely wears a full face of makeup so I don't own a lot of products but I like to wear it on special occasions, when I'm just feeling like getting a little glam or while Sterling and I are doing a shoot. I think it's nice to have a makeup routine that you're comfortable with and is easy to apply for when you just feel like wearing more makeup. For me, this means I like it to look natural anyways but adding a little blush, highlight and contour makes all the difference.

So for this look I start with a base of Maybelline fit me foundation, which I normally apply with a beauty blender or my fingers if I'm feeling a tad lazy. I like this foundation because it dries really lightweight on my skin but the coverage is decent and evens my skin tone. Then I normally go in with my E.L.F contour palette which includes a warm-toned bronzer shade and a cooler toned contour that are both matte so I used these shades in the hollows of my cheeks and in my eye crease to define the eyes a little.
For this look, I've been using a peachy pink Essence blush to lightly place on the apples of my cheeks and the place wear you would normally have a sun burn on your nose. I think this adds to the natural "blush" or being "flushed" look which I think is cute. To counter the pink on my nose I went in with my Too Face Candlelight Glow highlight right on the tip of my nose and right underneath wear my unibrow would be. Adding more glow to the cupids bow and the high points of my cheekbones and on the brow bones give it that extra bit of dew. I also find using this highlight as an eyeshadow make my lids almost have that glossy look so many 90s runway shows used. 

For my brows, I just run an almost dried up mascara by Covergirl through them to add some volume (do I need it?) and keep them from moving around, just like a tinted brow gel would do (but I don't want to buy an extra product). I used mascara first and then got it on my lids so I took my brown eyeliner by Essence and just made it into a thin line and pulled it straight out at the wing to make my eyes look a little bigger. With this look and that brown eyeliner I sometimes add faux freckles but I kept it really simple this day. I just topped it off with a "my lips but better" colour by mixing two E.L.F matte lipsticks in wine and neutral and blended that into my lips.

With makeup I really keep my standards down; if I get mascara on my nose, I rub it off. I don't need everything to be perfect because that's just not me. (I mean I'll still blend the shit out of my contour even if I accidentally put it on too heavily, but you get it.) Makeup to me is just an extension of your true beauty and wearing it to feel confident isn't a negative thing. I personally love keeping it natural but I am amazed to see makeup looks that are truly artful in the way the artist applies it! Whether you choose a face full of products or just your tinted moisturizer or nothing at all, you are beautiful and you should never let yourself or anyone else make you feel ashamed of the face you were given.
Also, check out my latest video, in which I'm wearing this look!

As always, thanks so much for reading,

Saturday, 4 March 2017

What I Would Have Worn: Fashion Week

Though it's been hard to follow every event at the fashion weeks over the last month, I did get inspired to style an outfit that I might have worn to a day at London fashion week. One of Samantha Maria's fashion week outfits definitely gave me some inspiration here, but I am loving this look. I found this crisp white dress in the Zara sale and instantly felt drawn to styling it in an interesting way because the asymmetric layered skirt is really current with the ruffle trend this year. I know that bold colour is enormous on the runway this year, but I still find that neutral colours are a lot more relevant to my personal style which is why instead I'm using a more dramatic silhouette than I would typically wear.
I continued the asymmetry through out the entire outfit by adding my Instax Mini case with a crossbody strap along with a single statement earring to balance the elements. Yes, I am wearing penny loafers, and yes I was going for the Gucci loafer kind of vibe. I find that loafers without socks and a higher cut off pant really elongates the leg and I can't get enough. If I had them on hand, I definitely would have added a pair of black fishnet tights underneath to add a little juxtaposition in the look. 
I hope you enjoyed this look, let me know if you would like to see anything specific styled on this blog, and be sure to check out my youtube channel for weekly uploads! 
Thanks for sticking with me,